Selena Gomez has opened up about her mental health difficulties in a new documentary, saying that being a Disney child star made her feel “like a product.”
The Apple TV+ documentary, My Mind & Me, follows the 30-year-old’s recent health struggles with lupus as well as her diagnosis of bipolar disorder following a psychiatric collapse in 2019.
The singer is portrayed in the moving project persevering through a taxing press trip that saw her giving innumerable interviews in London and Paris in preparation for the release of her 2020 album, Rare.
Following the cancellation of her 2016 Revival world tour, Selena entered a Tennessee psychiatric facility for treatment after she had begun to vocalize suicidal ideations to her friends and staff.
Though Selena has been open about her struggles in past interviews, fans are given an unfiltered look at her six-year battle with her illnesses in the vulnerable project.
Unfiltered: In the movie, the Bad Liar songstress showcases her struggles over a six-year period beginning in 2016
Hard days: The singer is seen struggling with depressing, anxiety and the physical pain of lupus on several occasions
In a preview for the candid movie, the Bad Liar songstress spoke out about how she finally learned to love herself and embrace her flaws.
‘Just be who you are, Selena,’ she said to herself. ‘No one cares about what you’re doing.’
‘It’s about who I am, being OK with where I am. I am grateful to be alive,’ she could be heard saying as various scenes of her rehearsing, singing, getting her hair and makeup done, waking up in hotel rooms, walking with a ton of cameras around her, and hanging out with her friends flashed across the screen.
Other moments showed her receiving treatment in a hospital, breaking down in tears, and running from paparazzi.
Ongoing journey: In other moments showed her receiving treatment in a hospital as she attempts to relive her symptoms
Candid: The raw documentary was filmed by Alek Keshishian who had complete access to the star
If anyone saw what I saw, they wouldn’t have recognized her,’ her friend, Raquelle Stevens, said in the trailer.
Complicated journey: Selena (seen in 2008) entered rehab for professional treatment more than once throughout her decade-long career
In one part of the preview, the Same Old Love singer voiced her fears that she’s ‘not good enough,’ after a friend asked her what was ‘holding her back.’
‘That’s something that I felt a lot growing up,’ she admitted.
In another part, she said, ‘My whole life, since I was a kid, I’ve been working. I don’t want to be super famous, but I do know that if I’m here, I have to use that for good.
‘What makes me happy is connection, and it helps me get out of my head. I’m still here to use whatever I have to help someone else.’
Behind-the-scenes: The singer now lays bare the intimate details of her road to ‘unimaginable stardom’ and ‘turn into darkness’ during that time
